Category Archives: Life and Social

On The Couch

On a recent visit to my therapist, we went through an exercise aimed at helping me find closure. I read a letter I wrote to the man I love, and tried to process it while listening to alternate drumbeats through … Continue reading

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The Need For Closure

I have been silent on the blog, and it is less from lack of things to say and more from having too much weighing on my heart. Just as the clouds lifted over my working life, a huge sadness cast … Continue reading

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Your Final Gift

Love is not measured in minutes or days. If I added up all the moments I spent with you they will be one or two days at most. Yet I grieve your absence from my life, like a widow who … Continue reading

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This Too Shall Pass

I always dreaded a chance meeting with my imaginary lover. When this happened in the past, I used to get a terrible adrenaline rush, my heart raced uncontrollably and my leg muscles twitched and trembled in a fight-or-flight reflex. I … Continue reading

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Fixed at the Edges but Broken at the Centre

The past few weeks have been some of the most difficult in my working life, and the show is set to continue, during a year that is extremely heavy on conference and meeting schedules. I am heading my small unit … Continue reading

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Some of Me

Some of me is here, the rest of me stayed behind, it lingered with you. Now some of me pines, longs for what is most of me, come see me one day. Adapted from Mahmoud Darwish: فبعضي لدي، وبعضي لديك … Continue reading

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My Displaced Soul

Fragments of my heart are still floating around. On the internet cloud somewhere, a love letter that he rejected, or refused to read. Half-finished posts, about tender moments, half-lived. I can almost believe now, they were imagined. slivers of paper, … Continue reading

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His Poisonous Arrow

A lazy and careless remark that he threw at me has found its mark. Like a poisonous arrow with delayed effect it hurt me deeply. When he belittled what I felt from him and invited me to fall in love … Continue reading

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Love’s Tragic Life

Over its lifetime, love is always loud and wild. It knows no moderation, and burns bright, hot or icy cold. At its best it is the sunshine in the heart, but its fire keeps burning, even in the heat of … Continue reading

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Hope Dies Last

I did not make the 100 days mark. Today it has been 98 days since I last saw my beloved Englishman, and I had to see him again when he texted me to have coffee. Over the past few months, … Continue reading

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