Absent-minded but with a fully present heart
I read this phrase once and I lived by it ever since: “Regret for the things we did can be tempered by time; it is regret for the things we did not do that is inconsolable”.
It is true that following this advice made me marry the wrong man, but it also led me to discoveries about myself, what I am and where I want to be. If I hadn’t taken this chance I would have been forever wondering what if…
It will be the day my son was born, because on that day I was also born as a mother and my life gained definition and purpose. I discovered that I have huge capacity of love that I never knew I had in me. I still wonder at the power of this little person in my life. The day he was born the universe aligned itself and I found my place in it. It felt like I have been waiting for him my whole life
Another month has passed and I have not visited, but seems like some people haven’t forgotten me, strangely enough my blog stats haven’t flat-lined (yet)
The months of June and July have been interesting so far. I followed the World Cup here in South Africa, I turned 40, I bought a flat, I cheered half a dozen different teams, I went on fan walks, I attended two World Cup matches live, and I indulged in a huge crush on a talented football player the way I did when I was 12.
Just before I turned 40, a young friend of mine died after a battle with cancer and whenever I remember him now I feel that I have to give thanks to the years, the white hairs and the time I have been given on this planet.
I may not be very young anymore but I can still enjoy simple pleasures and laugh from the bottom of my heart. I am still capable of working hard and staying up all night. I still love my life, and I love it today more than I did in my younger days. I have work to do on this planet, things to see and a young son to raise. I am happy to be part of it all.
More hopefully later when I finish my current project.
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